I came to a realization about myself today. I'm not well-liked. I've had close friends from high school get married, and I wasn't invited. Though invitations went out to evil, manipulative, back-stabbing people, I didn't get one. That's not all.

For the last 8 years, I've attended DH's family gatherings. This includes grandaunts, cousins, and their children. This year we won't be in attendance. While I was in the kitchen preparing some food, it hit me. When it comes to events, I don't get an invitation. I'm not sure what it is about me, but I'm just not liked by people. I don't get wedding, baby/bridal shower, or birthday invitations. DH may have had 5 people on his mother's side attend our wedding. Whenever we go to these gatherings, since being married, I get drilled. I get put under a microscope about whether I am cooking/cleaning for him by the elders. The ones that are my age don't have much to say to me. I can't talk to the middle-aged family because its as if I'm 'not there yet', so I wouldn't understand conversation.

Since being married DHs family has visited our house twice. Once after we moved in, and in May when I threw him a party. This past Sunday his mom was supposed to come. She said that she called the house and HIS cell number. All of this calling occurred while we were outside. I had my cell phone outside and it didn't ring at all. I say all that to say this. I feel like I am a poison in DHs life. Its been almost a year since we have been married and moved in, and no one seems to care. I feel that if I hadn't come into his life, he'd be happier. If it was another woman, they'd visit more. Things get said and done to me on purpose when he's not around. I feel as if he doesn't believe me when I tell him. I'm being made out to look like a crazy, anti-social, bitch.

When I think about my life, I realize that I'm not well-liked. I am in a bad situation and I don't know what to do. Right about now, I want out.